Fairy tales often feature a moment—a blindingly-specific moment in time—at which point the protagonist has that a-ha insight when facing a challenge that clarifies everything.
“Things are terribly wrong.”
“I am doing the wrong thing.”
“This is the wrong outcome…but it can be changed.”
Then they smile, and give that knowing glance, and get started making things better, immediately. You know that look. Here it is:
I have found, at least in my own life, that such insights come to me in waves, over and over, urging me to get closer to the answer and dig in deeper. Almost nothing comes to me that simply and clearly. I need repetition, particularly in matters of self-awareness.
So it is on this first day of lent. I have felt, for the past few months, that my healthy diet and lifestyle are waning. I have known, from the way that I feel, the snack foods I’ve desired, and the pull I’ve had to tastes and treats I haven’t had in two years (mostly avoiding, sometimes indulging), that something is not working.
It is typical for post-vertical sleeve patients to level-off in their weight loss, and even gain some pounds back. It is difficult to fight this secondary battle—many of the immediate benefits of the surgery, including a lack of hunger, along with an indescribable boost of energy, are gone after a year.
And while I cannot say that I have done a terrible job with my diet and exercise—empirically, I haven’t—I need to up my game if I want to continue to save my own life.
It really sucks, you guys, but that’s the truth.
Lots of guilt and shame and worry come with this realization, as always, but the experience of going through surgery (and the psychological prep required for it) has made me more able to bounce back from those feelings.
Lent is the perfect time to focus inward, to see how repentance can open the door to freedom. As lent begins, I am recommitted to my daily practice of meditation, moderate activity, and a laser-eye focus on my protein-forward diet.
I won’t be perfect—that’s not the goal. I will be committed, though. That’s the best I can offer.
I will still be offering a wide-array of recipe recommendations here at Misery Loves Cookery this spring, but my ability to taste test some of the carb-heavy options will be limited. That’s where you come in, Misery Loves Cookery readers! If you try something yummy here on this site, share your feedback with a comment, or connect to me at my Misery Loves Cookery Facebook page.
Thanks for your help and support in the ever-moving target which is my health and wellbeing. I hope that I can play some part in your own story of health and wellness, too.